Daily Archives: September 5, 2011

I was tired of my day-to-day existence… lonely… cold… wet… the long hours… impersonal interactions… concrete and asphalt. The sky was dark. Rain was coming down as I waited for the cab to pull up. Water splashed on my shoes. There was a Plexiglas divider separating the driver and me. A few small holes drilled into the Plexiglas enabled the driver to hear me when I told him, “the airport.” There was a little drawer where I would put the fare at the end of the run, enabling the driver to obtain the money without my reaching into his lifespace. Messages inside the cab bombarded my spirit. Don’t talk to the driver. No smoking. Do not slam the door. No food. No dogs. Will not cash anything higher than a 20. Do not roll down window. Not responsible for items left in cab. Fasten your seatbelt. There was no seatbelt. I sat back, stressed out from packing and cleaning the apartment so I could get my security deposit back. I closed my eyes and sat completely still for several moments. I needed that. I opened my eyes and found myself encased in the same negative environment, but something had changed inside me. I reflected on the rain coming down, the dark sky, and the negative environment, but in spite of it all, a blissful thought entered my mind: I realized that I would miss all this. It was a psychic gift that came from deeply within. I knew that someday I would be relating to friends what a wonderful experience it had been to be here. I reached into my day bag and pulled out my yellow tinted glasses. The sun appeared to permeate my small space, and it was with a sense of melancholy that I realized that this, indeed, would be a moment that I would remember as paradisiacal.